hard to explain.. Wednesday, June 3, 2009 / 1:04 AM
wow, so i've been sitting on my ass on my computer chair, for like about the whole day today. And just now i thought of bringing the laptop in bed. I feeeeeel so much better ahhhhh :) the feeling of it bahha. And my pillow is nice and fluffylmao!
So yeah, i feel right now so dessserted. Well not exactly but i feel i avent done anything. Im so bored! I need to get out of my stupid god damn house. Its like im trapped. I should go out for bike rides but it rains, and thats no good ): I just cant really be bothered going somewhere far. I just want to be with people that make me laugh and happy, instead of my brother and mum and dad telling me and ordering me to do something. When im out of the house, thats when i feel glad that im free? lmao People who see me as who i am, im glad for. I am not those stupid people who just backstabb and say stuff that has no point to it. ( Well maybe i do LOL, right leon?) And like i have people out there that inspire me. People that help me be a better person as each day goes on. I have a story that hasnt been told, and im waiting it to be heard. err haham. I dont see me as plain, i have more to that. I can be as lound as i wanna be. I can relate to pepople. I have this thing, like when i watch someone do something, its like i know what theryre feeling right now. Like just say if someone when up to say something in front of a crowd. I can relate to that by looking at theyre expression on theyre face. But its usally the shy ones. Well maybe not shy but not so confident. Because maybe im not that confident. I want to reacch to that point where no one can relate to how i feel to that point. which means that noone can be feeling what i would be feeling. That is where i want to be. Not fame, not attention. But something that will be more of me, but in a better picture. Picture this: Me making a speach with 'umms' and "ahhs" AND this: "Hey everyone, hows everyone feeling tonight? are we good?! Well thats ffaboulous, because tonight i want to be telling you the real life of angelica" .. (okay that sounded like i was in a bar with a spotlight on me and everyone is getting drunk ha!) But yeah, i dont know what im talking about, but its making me feeling better. Its 1:22am right now
My birthday is soon :) How cool is this, i have exams soon, which i NEED to study for. And Exams are on the same week as my birthday. Which is the last day of my exams i finish at 10am. How awesomehaha. Im pretty bad at maths. No Im fine, its just my memory i bad at. I just cant remember all the., whats the called agian .. um formulas! thats it. Yeah i got bad memory. okay new topic.
I was thinking actually ive been thinkning of this for quite sometime now, After exams i want to look for a job. Just a part time job so i can get out the house for a great excuse. No doubts in that :) Maccas? Or best and less. Since im young, i would get hired more haha. I cant wait to get money. So i can buy the things i want and yeah.
Anthoer thing i had in mind was to change my style of fashion. I wanna be those garbage/vintage/old style /rocky/ whatever you wants to call it style. Just like Kritsen Stewarts. Its just so unique like you dont see people wearing stuff like that usually. And lke retro. I need clothes. like new style, really badly.
So yeah until next time, join angelica thorugh the adventures of her mind. ahaha gayyy.
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i think i miss you ):